At the Void's Edge

I’ll say this for Tumblr… I may sometimes poke fun at screamy Tumblr brats with their pseudo-feminist scrotum-punching and reparational white-bashing, but Tumblr does sometimes do what Facebook never could: make me think, “Hmm, I never thought of it that way,” and make me evolve in understanding someone else’s point of view more than I did before.

Facebook only reminds me of why I believe what I believe.

September was the month I separated from my former wife, the month I cancelled my subscription to Christianity, and the month I took the first steps that would eventually lead me to the Left Hand Path and a new, empowering, and life-affirming way of Being.

Now another circle has closed, and here I am at another new beginning. I’ve already cried the last of my tears over it, but there is still a part of me that wishes it could have gone differently. But there’s no other way it could have gone down. I just had a great many things to unlearn.

Crowley’s concept of “lust of result” and LaVey’s of the Balance Factor come in especially handy when interpreting success or failure from Workings related to Deep Desire. While on the surface, I didn’t get what I thought I wanted, I came to understand and put into practice what I really Needed: a comprehensive Self-remaking, from the way I feed and groom my physical body, to the stories I tell myself about the path that led me to the present moment, to the high-level “big” objectives that do and do not constitute my true Mission in this life.

Magic Works, even when it “doesn’t.”